To Be Alone

To Be Alone

I wanted the comfort of others. I wanted to be in the company of others. I didn’t want to be left out. I didn’t want to be all alone. Unfortunately, life thought otherwise.

I was not that great at making friends. I had a hard time talking with people I haven’t met yet. This social ineptness has been with me since I was born.

When a baby is born, they are born with an innate temperament that is not influenced by surroundings nor genetics. It is separated into two categories; high reactive and low reactive. The high reactive category can be separated into sub categories: sensitive and aggressive. I was born with the sensitive temperament. People with the sensitive temperament usually are fussy, timid, nervous, shy, and more likely to show their emotions.

But even with these ideas of temperaments, humans are a social species. We want to be with others. We want to interact and connect to each other. I truly want to have friends who will laugh, talk, help, and other things friends would do. But as I said, life finds a way.

I never made friends in preschool. I just tolerated it. I preferred to draw and read by myself. I specifically remembered staying awake during nap-time to read and wait for my parents to pick me up. When I got to kindergarten, I actually made a friend. He approached me first To me, he was the coolest person around. He introduced me to more and more people and as he did that, I slowly gained more self-confidence. But in the third grade, I passed the GATE Test for the GATE Program. The GATE Program stood for the “Gifted and Talented Education Program.” It was a test to find kids who were smarter than others. I was one of only five kids to pass in my school. I had to transfer to another school because there was not a GATE Program class in my school.

I lost everyone. I had no more friends. Strangers surround me once again. I had to start all over again. Or did I? As I said before, four other kids passed the test with me. So I thought, “All I need to do is attach myself to one of them that knows me and then I will gain friends again.” I did so and then I gained friends yet again. It was a perfect plan. I had a group that I continuously played with. We even had a group name. But life struck once again.

Nearing the end of the fourth grade my mother got a better job at another bank. The problem was that it would become hard to drive my brother and me to our different schools. My parents then decided to transfer both of us to schools closer to my mom’s work. I lost my friends once again. I was surrounded by strangers for a third time.

I had no one to help me this time. Everyone had already made their groups and cliques by the fifth grade. I had nobody. I couldn’t really talk to anyone because I always depended on someone else. I never got to develop my social skills because of that. At this school, the closest thing to a friend that I had was a kid that asked for a piece of my lunch everyday. I walked around the perimeter of the blacktop for fun for a month. I developed a long time habit because of that, but that is irrelevant. I finally made friends when a kid asked if I wanted to join their game of handball. I agreed and I didn’t regret it. I became integrated with this group of friends. I would consider them to be the closest I have ever been to a group from school. I got invited to parties and would hang out with them every chance I got.

We all went to the same middle school, which was great. The great thing about the GATE Program, which I didn’t experience in the other school, was that everyone in it had at least four classes together. This allowed me to actually try to develop my social skills since I was stuck with them for three years. I got to have more friends than I ever did before. But life had other plans.

In high school, I thought that my group of friends would stick together just like how we did in middle school. That wasn’t the case. One friend went to a private school. The rest joined clubs and sports and began to hang out with the people in those groups. I was left alone. My social skills were still underdeveloped. I became desperate. I looked for a person or a group to latch onto. I did find one within the first week, but it was not a good decision. They were not a good influence. They were rude and not that intelligent. Some of them did things that I would consider to be morally wrong. It, unfortunately, took me over a year to realize this. Maybe it wasn’t that it took me a year to realize this, but it took me a year to break my fear of being alone again if I left them. I found a group that I believed was full of good people and joined them. I’ve been with them ever since.

I’m still afraid. I know that our group with break off when we go our separate ways to different colleges. I don’t want to be alone again, but I know it will happen. I just want people to remember me. I joke around, make fun at myself, and laugh a lot to make sure at least one person remembers me. If one person remembers me, I won’t feel as lonely anymore. I will try to make the most of the time I have left before we all go about our separate paths. I just hope that I won’t be forgotten.


Attack on Paris

A terrible event has happened this week. If you have not heard about this, you must be living under a rock with no contact with civilization or technology. The obvious event that I am talking about is the recent attacks in France, which is speculated to have caused by the terrorist group ISIS.

On Friday November 13, 2015, a series of attacks occurred in Paris. Starting around 9:20 P.M., an explosion was heard in the stadium, Stade de France, during a soccer game between France and Germany. Just around five minutes later, several gunmen fired upon the Cambodian restaurant, Le Petit Cambodge. At around 9:30 P.M., more shooting occurred at a pizza restaurant near Avenue de la République. At around the same time a second explosion occurred in the Stade de France. At around 9:36 P.M., another shooting happened at another restaurant, La Belle Équipe. A few minutes later at around 9:40 P.M., a suicide bomber bombs a restaurant on Boulevard Voltaire. Around the same time, an explosion occurred near the Bataclan Concert Hall while the band, Eagles of Death Metal, was performing at the hall. Shots were then reported at Bataclan Concert Hall at around 9:49 P.M. At around 9:53 P.M., a third explosion occurred at the Stade de France.

It was stated that there were 129 deaths and 352 wounded and 99 of the wounded were in critical condition. This has been the one of the worst terrorist attacks in Europe in ten years.

This is a truly tragic event. Many innocent lives were killed for no good reason. These terrorists are a menace to society and must be stopped before any more harm is done to innocent citizens. Nobody deserved this.

Fortunately, French President François Hollande has announced that France would go into a “state of emergency” with tightened borders and a mobilized military. American President Obama has made a statement to assist France.

The leader of Isis has made a declaration that they were the ones responsible for the attacks. There is some evidence that points to Isis being the ones who caused this, but there is no hard proof that they were truly the ones that caused it.

Even so, France launched airstrikes two days later on the Isis capital Raqqa, Syria. French President François Hollande considers the attacks to be “an act of war,”and he retaliates with attacks of his own. I do not approve that he attacked without hard evidence even though Isis claimed to have done it, but I am glad he is actually doing something to a group of terrorists.

People are now going about their lives in France in fear for their lives. Flowers have been put of the sites of the shooting. I’m horrified at this event, and I do wish the best for the people in France.

A Poster Problem in Fountain Valley High School

Last week was about a event in Europe was it not? Let’s talk about a bit of a local event. To be specific, my home city, Fountain Valley. Currently, there is a stir that has been caused in Fountain Valley High School. Here’s a bit of background information on this story. In the Huntington Beach Union High School District, there is a rivalry between two sister schools. The two schools are Edison High School and Fountain Valley High School. This rivalry has lasted for many years now. Currently, this rivalry is shown the most in the football game that occur every year. In this football game, whichever school wins the game will gain the trophy for a year. The trophy is a bell. In the week before the game, each school celebrates an event called Bell Week. The students of each school show their pride by participating in the fun events that occur throughout the week. Each school is decorated with posters made by the students. This is where this problem starts. The posters made by the students show the pride of being a student of the school, but there are small insults made against the other school in the posters. These posters poke fun at the rival school, but some of those posters are just flat out insults. One girl was not happy with this and took matters into her own hands. A girl by the name of Isabelle Abbott decided to rip down a poster that said, “Edison girls don’t shave.” This was recorded and later uploaded on Twitter by a friend. She is not ripping the poster down because it is making fun of Edison girls. She is ripping down the poster because she believes that it is shaming girls’ bodies. She believes that girls should not be ashamed for having hairy legs. This fiasco has caused people to take sides on whether or not her action is justified. I don’t want to get thrown into this fire, but if I were to give an opinion on this matter, I would say that she had a reason that could be supported, but the way she acted on this matter was inappropriate. Isabelle stated that she did talk to an Associated Student Body member about this, but it is later found out that she had two of her friends talk to a member about this. She then proceeds to tear it down the following day. She could have gone about this a little less violently. In my honest opinion, this could have gone a bit better than what actually happened. Baron News, the online newspaper for Fountain Valley High School, does good job talking about the event and also provides a small article written by Isabelle herself on how she feels about this. I recommend seeing both these articles. Well this is the end to this little post. I hope you enjoyed reading this.

A Crisis in Europe

Ah, the European Migrant Crisis. A tragic event that is still occurring to this day. Also called the European Refugee Crisis. If you didn’t know about the European Migrant Crisis, then here is a short summary on it. Basically, a large number of people from countries from the Middle East and Africa are trying to migrate to Europe. Many of the migrants are either coming from poor countries and they are trying to find better jobs in Europe or coming they are from war torn countries and are trying to flee to Europe to seek refuge. These unfortunate souls have to make the journey towards Europe, fleeing their homes to try to have a better life. It is a sad tale. I do hope for their survival. There is a slight problem that is in their way though. Actually, it is more like a combination of several problems. People that want to enter into Europe must submit an application to be eligible to enter Europe. The European Union can only bring in a limited amount of people. Some countries have many citizens have xenophobia, the dislike or fear of people from other countries, which causes the those countries to prohibit the entrance of any of the refugees. There are also some economic problems that come with inviting immigrants to Europe that I won’t go into detail. In the past year, there have been around 600,000 applications sent to European Union. Of those applications, only less than 200,000 of those applications were accepted. Those who don’t get accepted must be sent out of Europe. Many try to enter Europe illegally, but most of those attempts fail. They sometimes lead to unnecessary deaths of innocent people. This is the worst migrant crisis since World War II. Unfortunately, there is no simple solution to this problem. It can’t be fixed with a simple wave a magic wand. The European Union is faced with a terrible situation. The right thing to do is to admit all applications that are sent to them, but if they admit them all, the Union will face an economic and social crisis. The Union is stuck between a rock and a hard place. There have been over 300,000 new applications that have been submitted this year. If only this can be solved with a few clicks of the heels of a ruby pair of shoes. If only this problem was this simple.

Huntington Beach High School Beating From a Different View

Recently, a student from Huntington Beach High School was seen beating a blind kid. A video of this beating went viral online within a few hours of the beating. Many news sites and local news stations immediately reported on this event, but there were a few things that they forgot to mention. Almost every place that mentions the beating has a title somewhere along the lines of, “Student Protects Blind Classmate From Bully.” This title is very misleading. The articles written about this always portray the “blind” kid as the victim and the “bully” as the villain. Let’s look at a bit of context shall we. I did a bit of research and found some interesting information. Austin, the “victim”, is not completely blind. He is legally blind. Being legally blind means that the person’s ability to see is to such a degree that it cannot be fixed by normal means. Austin can see, but he cannot see as well as others. There is also a bit of past between Austin and Noah, the “villain”. From the information of Kayla Landeros, a classmate, Austin was hitting on Noah’s girlfriend and he was talking bad about Noah. She claims that Austin was the one who initiated the fight and Noah simply stood up for himself. The are multiple sources supporting that Austin was the one who initiated the fight including from Noah himself. She claims that Cody, the boy who punched Noah, was the real villain because he almost killed Noah. I must admit that the sources that I got these pieces of information are not that reliable. All the information was found online so there is no telling if these were lies or not. There were people that knew Noah that tried to defend him so that presents biased pieces of information. Kayla Landeros contradicts herself in her own statement. Unfortunately, there is no real conclusion to this story. People just make assumptions and post it online which causes a bunch of misleading information. Everyone has their own perspective on these things. If Austin was really provoking Noah, Noah could have been the bigger man and ignored Austin or perhaps Noah saw Austin as a threat to him and his girlfriend and that is why he retaliated like he did. Maybe Cody saw a bully hurting a defenseless boy and that is the reason he punched Noah. Cody could have just tried to diffuse the situation by talking or getting in between the two, but stopping the fight like that is incredibly idealistic. There is not a true view of the situation and that is perfectly fine.